Friday, October 17, 2014
Many things in my life have been taken away. Although there are people that I wish were never taken away, I know that God has used everything to shape me in to the person that I am today. Their lives, however short or long, touched my life in profound ways.
My best friends from childhood were taken away, one by illness another by tragedy. I was not prepared for either, but their life continues to impact mine today. Understand I don't live in the past, but their lives shaped who I am and how I live. I think of them often, but God was there to comfort me. I know they are both in a better place and one day I will see them again.
My parents were taken away. My father to death, my mother to dementia. Again, I wasn't prepared for either. I stood in faith that my father would be healed. When he wasn't healed this side of Heaven, I broke. With my mom, it is a slow journey, I find myself pulling away, and then feeling guilty because her time here is limited. God was there to catch me when I fell, and is there as I journey through this with my mother.
Dreams I had have been taken away. Many have just changed as I have grown in my relationship with God. He has shown me that He has better things for me than what I thought I wanted. For every dream I thought was taken away, He replaced it with more than I could ask.
I remember when I walked away. I admit there are days when things are tough that that thought crosses through my mind, but that away is the only one that I can't find a positive in. When I walked away from God, my life took me places that although He has used for His glory, were never things He wanted in my life. As a result of me, walking away from Him